sorry blog, i've been MIA. actually, i was out of the state in a state that is WAY behind in technology. who uses dial up anymore? certainly not us southern california people who have targets and starbucks on every corner. the city i went to did not have a SINGLE starbucks.
which was kind of awesome, because i hate starbucks.
anyway.
mini update on senator: i was being a brat most of last week because i was tired of him being selfish and not realizing it, so i was impassively letting him know by pointing things out. like making dinner... would it kill him to make a little extra of whatever he's making? i do it a lot. on saturday morning i made him an awesome breakfast but ended up not feeling well so i didn't eat it. but i spent a good 45 minutes doing it. i also brought him some desert home from a party i went to, 2 for each of us and he ate all of them without so much as a thank you. anyway. after breakfast he knew i had thrown up but didn't bother to see if i was okay until he finished getting ready. then later i was saying i was hungry while we were cuddling on the couch. a little while later he got up and got himself some leftover pizza and salad and had lunch while i was in the other room. i wandered into the kitchen and was laughing to myself, both out of astonishment and bewilderment. he wanted to know what was up so i told him, "you're kind of clueless sometimes" and he didn't get it. AT ALL.
let me break it down: i made him breakfast. an awesome breakfast. he didn't say thank you until i prompted him to. i didnt get to eat my breakfast because i felt sick and by the time i felt better it went bad. a few hours later i say "i'm hungry." he gets food for himself and doesn't bother to ask if when he's microwaving his peice if i want him to stick another one in there for me. he eats in front of me and then wonders why i've got this look on my face.
stupid.
then later that night, i made a comment that i wanted to smoke. the last few times i did he didn't and said he was in school, so he couldnt so i just assumed he didn't want to. sunday morning it turned into this huge fiasco of me "deceiving him" and not including him. i had no idea he wanted to, he always seems like he doesnt want to or that he looks down on me doing it. whoops. so my feelings were hurt and so were his and it was lame.
i just wish he was better at noticing little things and basic manners, saying please and thank you and just KNOWING WHAT TO DO in a relationship. sometimes i'm like, you're five years old. why can't you do these things? you're in law school. where is the socially smart you? i've been in several relationships and i know what i want. he's never been in one and it shows. in our making up stage, he said, "you've been kind of hard to please lately" and i accepted that, it's true. but i hope he sees it as, "hmm, i'm doing something wrong" instead of "she's just being a bitch"
but then on the other hand, he totally made up for it later in the bedroom, haha. :) although, he slugged me in his sleep during a dream when i tried to wake him up and im going to have a fatty bruise there. i slept on the couch after that. ouch.
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