wandering lights

i know i sound like a broken record, and i really only write in this when im in a bad mood. but it's also why i started it.

the bottom line is that i'm bitter that i dont get to take weekend trips with my boyfriend, that i don't get to go out on regular dates. i always initiate them and then i feel like he's just doing it to appease me. we aren't "dating" if all we do is live with each other and say good morning and good night and i listen to his boring law speil. i am so, so supportive, yet i don't feel like I'm getting much out of this relationship other than good hugs and an occasional meal. he makes a good housemate, i suppose, but i'm getting frustrated at giving giving giving and not getting much in return.

and yeah, i know i should stop bitching about it and DO something about it, but im not going to break up with him and nagging him doesn't seem to be doing any good.

it's like i have a love tank, and mid week it gets really empty.