wandering lights

i dont want to jinx it by writing about it, but despite losing my job, and having two people i knew die last week, this weekend was pretty fabulous.

knock on wood.

i am softly falling in love with senator. it's like, floating into a soft bed of flower petals with pink petals falling all over me.

i can't believe i wrote that.

he humors my adventures. he made me breakfast, i made him dinner. he survives my mood swings, and lets me complain. he's a soft shoulder to lie on and the arm that finds my body at night.

we went to the pumpkin patch this weekend, and even though it was hot and dusty he stood and took pictures and laughed at my desire for it to be absolutely perfect, when we both realized it was a tourist trap. he studied next to me on the couch for awhile before i left to go to a party saturday night, and people at the party seemed to finally accept that we are a couple and we care about each other. and the host made it clear that he's happy we're together, and while i don't need approval from anyone, it was nice to be validated. when i got home, i couldn't wait to be with him, and even though it was 3am when i crawled into bed, he still turned over and put his arm around me and fell back asleep. yesterday we were cuddly all day and i made him a halloween costume, from scratch. i sewed. SEWED. i dont sew. but it was fun. and his costume will be awesome on friday.

i hate mondays because it is the beginning of the week, and weekdays he's not always the most pleasant person to be around (because of school). i know to expect this, but i hope this week goes as well as last week did.

and for the first time since we've been together, i purposely x'ed out of the internet browser with dating advice and such. by not putting any ideas in my head, i totally avoid the mental war going on in my head, that doesn't need to be addressed. why didn't i think of that sooner?

on a side note, my halloween costume is awesome. AWESOME.