now i'm sweeping the streets i used to own

So I'm currently obsessed with Coldplay's viva la vida song. the lyrics are, whatever, but the melody is super catchy.

Senator got a comment on his facebook wall today asking if he had a girlfriend (his profile pic is of us) and he wrote on their wall this:

kinda...(insert my real name here) is my housemate and about a week ago we decided that we were more than just friends. we have a lot of the same friends from college so we just want to take it slow and figure that they can think whatever they want. since we live together already we laid down some rules like worst case scenario we need to not be mad and still be friends since we've been friends for the last five years. we get along ridiculously well and enjoy spending time together. we balance each other out personality wise but at the same time we have very similar values. now i just need to tell my parents...



awwww. i think that's sweet. i am someone who needs affrimation and reminding ALL THE TIME about stuff, so this makes me feel better. i sabotage it in my head and am like, he doesn't really like me etc etc.

but it's okay. and i just need to learn to let go and relax and take it one day at a time (i'm bad at that). i really really like him, i really hope it works out. i dont want to date ever again.

i spent the past few hours making dinner for my family (and they loved it! i'm in town for the weekend, obviously) and then went to my friends house. she and my other best friend just got an apt together and it's sweet. HOT, but sweet. it's big. and i love how she's doing her room. i love moving because it means you can redecorate. the only downfall to the new place im moving to is that there is gross wallpaper everywhere and we can't take it down. but it will be fun.

my mom and i were going through old old photos today, back to her wedding. my parents were one year older than i am now when they got married. it was fun looking at thier pictures, since we're not the type of family to have tons of family portraits or old wedding photos up everywhere.

my dad and brother noticed i've lost weight. it's helped a lot having a scale in my bedroom, i am to get lower. and it helps a lot that i've cut down on drinking. tonight i really wanted to go to the gym but there's not a 24 around here. my parents live in the boonies.

i graduated high school with most of the people i went to kindergarten with, and i found a ton of papers, projects, class worksheets and photos with people in them that i haven't talked to in years. it's wierd, part of me wants to send them it and say, "stop being a bitch to me. i've done nothing to you and we have history, so get over yourself" one of the projects i found was from the 5th grade or so, and he died our senior year of high school in a car accident. it was kind of eerie finding his handwriting in a pile of my papers.

i'm getting a pedicure tomorrow with my friend who is very very pregnant. like, she's been having contractions for a week now but still no baby. wouldn't that be funny if she started going into labor as they were painting her nails? that would be AWESOME. because then i could be there. i really really want to have my own baby someday, but i have this big fear that i wont be able to. another incentive for losing weight, i suppose.

anyway, i dont really have anything else to say. i miss senator and i hope we work out.